Yesterday morning, I finished a “timeline” for CLG.
Been really praying for direction and it is one day at a time 🙂
Since I only have 24 hours in a day.
This time was about the “footer” LOL!
I wasn’t kidding when I say I want to put everything at the foot of the cross and however big or however small,
I want to pray for guidance because you know, imperfect people like me, sometimes, we think something is right, and then later on realize, oops, “That wasn’t so right!”, when it seemed right “at that time.”
Last night I turned this site on “maintenance mode”, because me writing about my own “vulnerabilities” out on the interweb, while I am finishing up the CLG project,
… you can now guess what types of advertisements I now see!
LOL! Anyway, I got reminded of those days I was working on clinical research topics, and making sure the proper “citations” are done for medical journals and such, so the keywords I was researching was different types of disease codes (back then it was ICD-7 still) and then moving to ICD-10).
We were studying pulling from different databases to determine the top ten diseases in a specific city, and then write a software for it.
Via python.
Back then I thought python was a snake!
One thing with speaking another language, aside from English, you think in your native language, and then translate in your brain, and then speak IT in English.
So now imagine going through that “thinking and processing” process and then try to learn ANOTHER computer language.
I wrote that professor about enrolling in a course where I was supposed to learn something, it would have been “honest” if they put it in there “promo material for the course” that we will be paying the university for a very expensive post graduate course, so that the students can figure out how to learn ANOTHER computer language.
When the course was NOT about ANY computer language.
A postgraduate version of “bait and switch”.
Anyway, I barely passed the course, but did I learn anything?
Did I learn python?
I wrote a 300 line computer program. With the expected results that they required.
Yay!
Not good enough, because their OWN answer was a computer program with only about, I don’t know, 20 lines of code?
LOL!
But what did I really learn from that course?
I learned more than the super tenacity that I thought I already had, I learned there is nothing on this planet that cannot be learned, if you put the time, patience and effort to learn it.
It became a “learning agility” thing. For those people like us who got into that postgraduate program – right when Obama mandated Electronic Medical Records for use.
I saw and experienced first hand in different Emergency Rooms in several hospitals how “confusing it was” to the already stressed out doctors and nurses, who are already dealing with stressful situations trying to save lives.
So they got a couple of us post graduate students and paid us to “immerse ourselves for 10 days on self-paced software learning/training, computer based training”
And then come GO LIVE date, they put us out on different areas of a hospital, have a pager, and we were the “Experts” on the Electronic Medical Record software.
We were given our badge (that has access to all the doors of the hospital), a folder, with maps of the hospital, shortcodes , etc. And most importantly, free lunch coupons, and free parking coupons. 🙂
Our pager (like what doctors have), has a number, and the Command Center was in charge of getting all the “emergency electronic medical records issue from the doctors or nurses”, and then beeping the message to our pagers – go to “Trauma Center #3, look for Dr. So and so, ASAP”.
Imagine “ASAP” (As Soon as Possible or “I needed you here yesterday!”) for at least 12 solid hours of your shift.
Most times, I didn’t even get the chance to “eat or drink” during shifts.
You couldn’t really think of eating when you “know” someone’s life is at stake, or someone else’s medical license is at stake.
(One of the tenets of putting everything on Electronic Medical Records is “so that “Medical Errors” could be reduced or avoided. But like one Doctor complained to me, “I’ve already studied for 20 years! Must I study this software more?!!”)
So I had a coat that was big enough to carry a small bottle of water, and several bite sized packs of M & Ms, and cookies. And mints.
I ate in between marathons to one part of the building to the next.
High stress environment.
The best story I have of that experience was when I got called to a Trauma Room and the Nurse showed me the “User Interface” she saw on her screen.
She was measuring the dilation of the left eye (pupil), and inputting the measurement to the Clinical Information System, and voila!
There was only ONE field available. Just for the LEFT eye.
No field for the RIGHT eye!
And that was in a Trauma room!
When I saw that and it got reported to me, I then looked at the patient, who was watching and hearing all these.
JESUS.
I felt led to say to the very scared patient who heard all of these, “I’m sorry, don’t worry. The nurse will take care of you, this computer glitch will not affect the level of clinical care you will receive.”
And so I just said, just use Paper charts for now, I’ll call the Command Center right away and this will be prioritized.
One thing good about that is when consultants like me would call, from any phone in the hospital, they listen and as I explain (exasperated) the Tech Issue I saw, “HEY, can you fix that right away? We do not treat CYCLOPS here! There is no field for the RIGHT eye in the Trauma room User Interface!”)
In my mind, I knew how to fix it, add another field in the database, go to the webpage, go to the “form” section, copy paste the “left script” and then change the field label and field name copied from “left” to “right”. Click Update button.
Press Control F5 on the Front End, and then the revision is fixed.
I was on standby on the phone, because I didn’t want to go back to the Trauma Room UNTIL I was sure that the revisions and code tweak was done.
How long did that take? I was timing it.
About 2 minutes.
So I went back to the Trauma Room, and instructed the nurse to “refresh” the page.
Voila! It’s there. Field names for BOTH Left and Right Eyes. And it’s parts that they have to measure that would record any brain injuries too, as can be seen when they measure the dilation of the pupils. They clinically co-relate these scientific and exact measurements.
So when people (the nurses there) would see me on hallways, it was like, they KNEW my name, and called me by my name, after I have helped them. Same with the doctors and the doctors even asked for my cellphone.
I became like an on call person for them. Sometimes even when I am off duty they would call me to ask for a step by step.
So I would fire up my laptop and look at my own notes. Since like I said, it’s type of Provider sees a different screen. A Pediatrician can see different fields and different from an Psychiatric Emergency Department Provider / Physician.
And the clinicians were of course frustrated, agitated, most of them angry, when they see me. They let out their frustration and anger on the computer software, on whoever is there, to supposedly help them “figure it out, or explain to them how the software works.”
One thing I have learned in Electronic Medical Records design, and Human Computer Interaction, the Designer of the software needs to be mindful of ALL the possible types of users that they are going to be having.
The design has to be intuitive.
The rise of Information Scientists (informatician), was to be somewhat of a bridge, between a developer and a clinician.
Informaticians had to understand the lingo, between those two disparate and separate worlds.
And as such, have to “see beyond” the “stressed psychological and behavioral manifestations” of the clinician yelling at you.
It was a team of I.T. Consultants – all of us roaming all around the hospital – deployed for 1 day, 2 days, 3 days. It was a city-wide hospital wide implementation. So we had to literally hit the ground running when we go to a certain location to be on standby and help.
6AM to 6PM shifts, originally,
But for me it was always 4AM to about 9PM shift.
Then the schedule sometimes flip flops.
6PM to 6AM.
It’s like the “Expert” must be somewhat of a robot and adjust.
It wasn’t a real problem with me because when I travel overseas, I’m used to different time zones and those changes.
But you get disoriented too, like a lot. So that’s why I ALWAYS wore an “old school watch” that would help keep my bearings.
Kinda like an “anchor time”, so I would be cognizant of when it was that I actually slept.
A few of the clinicians, were friendly, and also would say kind things like “You have to be paid a huge amount of money for what they are putting you through, and what you are actually teaching.”
“Yeah, I wish.”
Not really.
“Some would ask, how did you get this role?”
Back then the word “informatician” wasn’t really hip yet. So I just say I’m an Information Scientist. I have a postgrad on the Science of Information, Biomedical Information Science.
“Weirdo” for short.
Some of the other I.T. Consultants would “walk out when a doctor yells at them.”
They’d say “I don’t have to put up with this #$#$^#$##!”
Then I’d be left alone with the doctor.
After that, that’s when I’ve learned, the yacking doctor is NOT “that” computer literate. And he depended on his Physician Assistant to do his computer work.
In Electronic Medical Records, EACH clinician has to log his own stuff on the software, which quite honestly, wasn’t so “user friendly.”
So I was just honest with that doctor, and also explained we were all just traveling consultants who are hired to help out and teach. That it would be better for him to just flat out say, “I’m a little bit computer challenged” so that the Consultants can do a one on one type of “coaching” on how to navigate through.
The Electronic Medical Records software was / is quite complex and it depends on a Usergroup, and the Interface a Doctor / Pediatrician sees is different from the Interface that an Emergency Room Physician / Provider can see. Also different from what a Nurse or a Chaplain might see.
So US Consultants, we had to be able to “adjust in our brains” what to teach, that would be specific to that particular user group.
A doctor ordering a blood transfusion screen is different from the “view” of the doctor who is in the “blood bank” receiving such an order.
It’s not like M.S. Word, where all of us can see the same type of screen, or User Interface.
Anyway, so I remember that experience. A lot.
That can add to how people design software, or websites.
Also think about your Users. Your audience. What do they need?
I also remember one always angry and grouchy Consultant who didn’t have a problem insulting me any chance she gets.
“Why are you always smiling?!! It’s annoying!”
And I’d answer with, “Why are you always frowning? It doesn’t annoy me, but it’s not good for wrinkles! LOL!”
“How do you keep your energy up? It’s nearing end of shift and you are still working as if you just started!”
My answer…
… “Try Jesus. I pray before during and after the shift. I also pray for all the doctors and clinicians I help out. That they remain calm as they are learning another new software WHILE they are trying to save lives in the Emergency Room.”
I’ve been called names there, not my real name.
They called me “Hey Trauma lady!” “Hey Epic 1!” “Hey Suit Lady” “Hey Blood transfusion lady!” “Hey long hair!” “Hey Turtle Neck!” “Hey Skinny!” “Hey YOU, Yes YOU!”
And I had a badge with my name complete with acronym and role on it, I guess that’s just the easier name, kind of like “terms of endearment”.
The other Consultants wondered and actually asked me, “How did you get through to that nurse group mafia?” (because I saw behind the “grouchiness” of some of them and recognized it was only “their mask” because they didn’t want to admit they needed help learning the computer software. Once I shared that I also knew nothing about the software but was only “immersed in it for 10 days, so I can learn and teach – I said, If I can learn it, so can they, because they are more intelligent than I am, and back then I only had an MBA 🙂 )
The other Consultants also teased, “Oh so now you are not having lunch with us, because you’re having lunch with the Nurses!”
In other countries, nurses aren’t really given that “elevation” of gratitude and respect. Here in the U.S., the Nurses are actually the ones who are providing the care for the patients. I saw it.
Highest respect for the Doctors & Clinicians here in the U.S. Not an easy job they do.
It was after those experiences when I also attended more courses in Clinical Research, and I had Doctors, Faculty and Nurses and other clinicians as classmates.
That’s when I saw the “humanity” of these people pursuing higher education.
Most of them are well respected, but when you are in a scenario, like a classroom where all of you are equal, as fellow students, trying to learn and understand concepts together, discussing and drawing from our own experiences and then contributing to a collective of knowledge and experience, it was always a WOW, after each class or session.
I can see the huge difference between listening to an “entertainer” and listening to a real “teacher”. With more acronyms after their names than the alphabet can provide.
All our sessions were recorded too. And that was fine. Because we know, I know, that those types of body of information that we were studying and discussing will be useful and helpful for and to future scientists.
When my oldest brother died recently, I thought about the wealth of knowledge that God allowed to be stored in his brain.
When someone dies, that goes away, too. Except in the minds of those whom he has taught.
If we pass on along what we have learned in our lifetime to those who would listen, maybe the next generation would not have to be “searching all that much”, and then believing or getting misled into false teachings.
Even respected universities can do that at times.
Lie to students.
So, because society dictates to pursue education, we should.
But not all wisdom comes from education.
I know because I have pursued it to the highest form I possibly could.
All those are worldly wisdom. It’s Godly wisdom, that I should have pursued earlier in my life.
We can all “master plan” our life, but if it’s not in God’s plan, it will not be fruitful or productive, it will just be “fleeting”.
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And there goes my thoughts for right this moment. 🙂
I’d much rather post those here, than FB. It’s actually okay, now thinking about it in hindsight, when hackers hacked into my son’s FB account and then FB discovered it and disabled my son’s account. (Of course FB would know it wasn’t my son posting those isis #$%%#@@$ that the hackers posted there, and it was good they caught it soon enough and then deactivated that account. My son could no longer access it).
That was another “teaching moment” for me as his High Tech Mama. Those were just the types of things that hackers do. He couldn’t relate to me before when I got hacked, and still constantly being targeted heavily, and that’s why I gave up on Social Media altogether, and hid behind “I’m Social Media fasting.”
Now, I have been writing more and more, not publishing, but I am going to be sharing MORE of what I have personally experienced.
This site will be my own Social Media site! 🙂
That’s what I’m thinking.
And do you know how liberating and freeing it is to just write and type without fears of typos?
No editing, just type, then publish.
(Liberating for me because in another lifetime, I was an Editor In Chief of a multinational company. I was the “department head” also of the “news department”. Until I butt heads with another manager, and then I just decided to leave because I can’t do kickboxing at work.)
The pay was great, six digits. I had a monthly clothing allowance and a monthly gas allowance and a monthly food allowance, on top of the six digits.
YEAH!
My News Team loved it, because I could only spend so much on clothing allowance, and the fund was there, whether I use it or not. The company accountant just said, “Use it, it’s your benefit and your perk as a department head. “Editor In Chief – CHIEF Fault Finder”. Anything badly published here, it went through YOUR eyes! So that’s your perks! Just submit receipts”. At that time, we became “receipt collectors”, which other department heads also did, and we would swap receipts. When we’d work overtime, like ALWAYS, I always bought food for the Team, and they knew I was using my “benefits” as a department head. I guess the company used those “tax breaks”.
I felt bad when I realized how little the receptionist was getting paid. So even then, I was already somewhat like an “advocate”.
I didn’t know it. I was still young.
When “job titles” meant something because of the “status” it gave.
Status means nothing.
The higher your status, your earning capacity, the more targeted you will be. You will also get a lot of fake “friends”.
You’ll also get “namedropped” a lot.
One GREAT thing about losing it ALL, was when God made me go through all that, to SHOW me, who my REAL friends are.
Just a few.
So THAT was the “blessings” part.
I was also “listening to the wrong types of influences and mentorship.”
The turning point for me, was when I would just point blank ask …
“Do you believe in God?”
or
“Do you believe in Jesus?”
Because there were some “advise/advice” that I was receiving that didn’t match what was being taught in the bible (and back then I already started the bible project).
And I would be damned. When I heard “No, because such and such …. ”
etc.
Those were the last conversations I’ve had with those people.
AS Christ Followers, we have to BE CAREFUL who we listen to, who might influence us.
There is a huge difference between RIGHT and ALMOST RIGHT.
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And I am going to clean up the footers at CLG, and clean up the Credits page too. (will copy old codes and save them on draft).
LOL! I went all over the place. It’s amazing how God can remind us of our OLD LIFE, and then when we compare it to the NEW LIFE God has given us, it’s really like … GOD THANK YOU for helping me change for the better. Thank you for making me realize how FOOLISH I have been. Please help me not make those same mistakes again.
Because I will have to have something – that I can spin-off to. The more I get hacked, NOW ALL THE MORE is there a need to write about what I know, because if God allowed me to go through all these experiences, it is imperative to share the truth so that people are made aware. There’s just way too much deception and censorship going on to fit a certain narrative. Another researcher’s website shows this and it is worth repeating.
“It is easier to fool people than to convince them that they have been fooled.”
And of course the ONUS is on the reader … someone took the time to type out their experience so you can be vigilant, and ALSO so that you can learn from other people’s mistakes.
Like Eleanore Roosevelt said: “Learn from other people’s mistakes. This lifetime is not enough to commit all of them.”
🙂
The above is “blog post worthy”!
Convert it into a blog post or are you purposely not wanting it to be search-able that’s why you are posting it on the comment section?
Also, at CLG, the YT videos that are posted have some links to literature for sale. Should we edit those? Or was that why you put the Forum on private?
The Sept 17 and 18 sessions ARE on CLG? Should we transfer them here?
Yesterday morning, I finished a “timeline” for CLG.
Been really praying for direction and it is one day at a time 🙂
Since I only have 24 hours in a day.
This time was about the “footer” LOL!
I wasn’t kidding when I say I want to put everything at the foot of the cross and however big or however small,
I want to pray for guidance because you know, imperfect people like me, sometimes, we think something is right, and then later on realize, oops, “That wasn’t so right!”, when it seemed right “at that time.”
Last night I turned this site on “maintenance mode”, because me writing about my own “vulnerabilities” out on the interweb, while I am finishing up the CLG project,
… you can now guess what types of advertisements I now see!
LOL! Anyway, I got reminded of those days I was working on clinical research topics, and making sure the proper “citations” are done for medical journals and such, so the keywords I was researching was different types of disease codes (back then it was ICD-7 still) and then moving to ICD-10).
We were studying pulling from different databases to determine the top ten diseases in a specific city, and then write a software for it.
Via python.
Back then I thought python was a snake!
One thing with speaking another language, aside from English, you think in your native language, and then translate in your brain, and then speak IT in English.
So now imagine going through that “thinking and processing” process and then try to learn ANOTHER computer language.
I wrote that professor about enrolling in a course where I was supposed to learn something, it would have been “honest” if they put it in there “promo material for the course” that we will be paying the university for a very expensive post graduate course, so that the students can figure out how to learn ANOTHER computer language.
When the course was NOT about ANY computer language.
A postgraduate version of “bait and switch”.
Anyway, I barely passed the course, but did I learn anything?
Did I learn python?
I wrote a 300 line computer program. With the expected results that they required.
Yay!
Not good enough, because their OWN answer was a computer program with only about, I don’t know, 20 lines of code?
LOL!
But what did I really learn from that course?
I learned more than the super tenacity that I thought I already had, I learned there is nothing on this planet that cannot be learned, if you put the time, patience and effort to learn it.
It became a “learning agility” thing. For those people like us who got into that postgraduate program – right when Obama mandated Electronic Medical Records for use.
I saw and experienced first hand in different Emergency Rooms in several hospitals how “confusing it was” to the already stressed out doctors and nurses, who are already dealing with stressful situations trying to save lives.
So they got a couple of us post graduate students and paid us to “immerse ourselves for 10 days on self-paced software learning/training, computer based training”
And then come GO LIVE date, they put us out on different areas of a hospital, have a pager, and we were the “Experts” on the Electronic Medical Record software.
We were given our badge (that has access to all the doors of the hospital), a folder, with maps of the hospital, shortcodes , etc. And most importantly, free lunch coupons, and free parking coupons. 🙂
Our pager (like what doctors have), has a number, and the Command Center was in charge of getting all the “emergency electronic medical records issue from the doctors or nurses”, and then beeping the message to our pagers – go to “Trauma Center #3, look for Dr. So and so, ASAP”.
Imagine “ASAP” (As Soon as Possible or “I needed you here yesterday!”) for at least 12 solid hours of your shift.
Most times, I didn’t even get the chance to “eat or drink” during shifts.
You couldn’t really think of eating when you “know” someone’s life is at stake, or someone else’s medical license is at stake.
(One of the tenets of putting everything on Electronic Medical Records is “so that “Medical Errors” could be reduced or avoided. But like one Doctor complained to me, “I’ve already studied for 20 years! Must I study this software more?!!”)
So I had a coat that was big enough to carry a small bottle of water, and several bite sized packs of M & Ms, and cookies. And mints.
I ate in between marathons to one part of the building to the next.
High stress environment.
The best story I have of that experience was when I got called to a Trauma Room and the Nurse showed me the “User Interface” she saw on her screen.
She was measuring the dilation of the left eye (pupil), and inputting the measurement to the Clinical Information System, and voila!
There was only ONE field available. Just for the LEFT eye.
No field for the RIGHT eye!
And that was in a Trauma room!
When I saw that and it got reported to me, I then looked at the patient, who was watching and hearing all these.
JESUS.
I felt led to say to the very scared patient who heard all of these, “I’m sorry, don’t worry. The nurse will take care of you, this computer glitch will not affect the level of clinical care you will receive.”
And so I just said, just use Paper charts for now, I’ll call the Command Center right away and this will be prioritized.
One thing good about that is when consultants like me would call, from any phone in the hospital, they listen and as I explain (exasperated) the Tech Issue I saw, “HEY, can you fix that right away? We do not treat CYCLOPS here! There is no field for the RIGHT eye in the Trauma room User Interface!”)
In my mind, I knew how to fix it, add another field in the database, go to the webpage, go to the “form” section, copy paste the “left script” and then change the field label and field name copied from “left” to “right”. Click Update button.
Press Control F5 on the Front End, and then the revision is fixed.
I was on standby on the phone, because I didn’t want to go back to the Trauma Room UNTIL I was sure that the revisions and code tweak was done.
How long did that take? I was timing it.
About 2 minutes.
So I went back to the Trauma Room, and instructed the nurse to “refresh” the page.
Voila! It’s there. Field names for BOTH Left and Right Eyes. And it’s parts that they have to measure that would record any brain injuries too, as can be seen when they measure the dilation of the pupils. They clinically co-relate these scientific and exact measurements.
So when people (the nurses there) would see me on hallways, it was like, they KNEW my name, and called me by my name, after I have helped them. Same with the doctors and the doctors even asked for my cellphone.
I became like an on call person for them. Sometimes even when I am off duty they would call me to ask for a step by step.
So I would fire up my laptop and look at my own notes. Since like I said, it’s type of Provider sees a different screen. A Pediatrician can see different fields and different from an Psychiatric Emergency Department Provider / Physician.
And the clinicians were of course frustrated, agitated, most of them angry, when they see me. They let out their frustration and anger on the computer software, on whoever is there, to supposedly help them “figure it out, or explain to them how the software works.”
One thing I have learned in Electronic Medical Records design, and Human Computer Interaction, the Designer of the software needs to be mindful of ALL the possible types of users that they are going to be having.
The design has to be intuitive.
The rise of Information Scientists (informatician), was to be somewhat of a bridge, between a developer and a clinician.
Informaticians had to understand the lingo, between those two disparate and separate worlds.
And as such, have to “see beyond” the “stressed psychological and behavioral manifestations” of the clinician yelling at you.
It was a team of I.T. Consultants – all of us roaming all around the hospital – deployed for 1 day, 2 days, 3 days. It was a city-wide hospital wide implementation. So we had to literally hit the ground running when we go to a certain location to be on standby and help.
6AM to 6PM shifts, originally,
But for me it was always 4AM to about 9PM shift.
Then the schedule sometimes flip flops.
6PM to 6AM.
It’s like the “Expert” must be somewhat of a robot and adjust.
It wasn’t a real problem with me because when I travel overseas, I’m used to different time zones and those changes.
But you get disoriented too, like a lot. So that’s why I ALWAYS wore an “old school watch” that would help keep my bearings.
Kinda like an “anchor time”, so I would be cognizant of when it was that I actually slept.
A few of the clinicians, were friendly, and also would say kind things like “You have to be paid a huge amount of money for what they are putting you through, and what you are actually teaching.”
“Yeah, I wish.”
Not really.
“Some would ask, how did you get this role?”
Back then the word “informatician” wasn’t really hip yet. So I just say I’m an Information Scientist. I have a postgrad on the Science of Information, Biomedical Information Science.
“Weirdo” for short.
Some of the other I.T. Consultants would “walk out when a doctor yells at them.”
They’d say “I don’t have to put up with this #$#$^#$##!”
Then I’d be left alone with the doctor.
After that, that’s when I’ve learned, the yacking doctor is NOT “that” computer literate. And he depended on his Physician Assistant to do his computer work.
In Electronic Medical Records, EACH clinician has to log his own stuff on the software, which quite honestly, wasn’t so “user friendly.”
So I was just honest with that doctor, and also explained we were all just traveling consultants who are hired to help out and teach. That it would be better for him to just flat out say, “I’m a little bit computer challenged” so that the Consultants can do a one on one type of “coaching” on how to navigate through.
The Electronic Medical Records software was / is quite complex and it depends on a Usergroup, and the Interface a Doctor / Pediatrician sees is different from the Interface that an Emergency Room Physician / Provider can see. Also different from what a Nurse or a Chaplain might see.
So US Consultants, we had to be able to “adjust in our brains” what to teach, that would be specific to that particular user group.
A doctor ordering a blood transfusion screen is different from the “view” of the doctor who is in the “blood bank” receiving such an order.
It’s not like M.S. Word, where all of us can see the same type of screen, or User Interface.
Anyway, so I remember that experience. A lot.
That can add to how people design software, or websites.
Also think about your Users. Your audience. What do they need?
I also remember one always angry and grouchy Consultant who didn’t have a problem insulting me any chance she gets.
“Why are you always smiling?!! It’s annoying!”
And I’d answer with, “Why are you always frowning? It doesn’t annoy me, but it’s not good for wrinkles! LOL!”
“How do you keep your energy up? It’s nearing end of shift and you are still working as if you just started!”
My answer…
… “Try Jesus. I pray before during and after the shift. I also pray for all the doctors and clinicians I help out. That they remain calm as they are learning another new software WHILE they are trying to save lives in the Emergency Room.”
I’ve been called names there, not my real name.
They called me “Hey Trauma lady!” “Hey Epic 1!” “Hey Suit Lady” “Hey Blood transfusion lady!” “Hey long hair!” “Hey Turtle Neck!” “Hey Skinny!” “Hey YOU, Yes YOU!”
And I had a badge with my name complete with acronym and role on it, I guess that’s just the easier name, kind of like “terms of endearment”.
The other Consultants wondered and actually asked me, “How did you get through to that nurse group mafia?” (because I saw behind the “grouchiness” of some of them and recognized it was only “their mask” because they didn’t want to admit they needed help learning the computer software. Once I shared that I also knew nothing about the software but was only “immersed in it for 10 days, so I can learn and teach – I said, If I can learn it, so can they, because they are more intelligent than I am, and back then I only had an MBA 🙂 )
The other Consultants also teased, “Oh so now you are not having lunch with us, because you’re having lunch with the Nurses!”
In other countries, nurses aren’t really given that “elevation” of gratitude and respect. Here in the U.S., the Nurses are actually the ones who are providing the care for the patients. I saw it.
Highest respect for the Doctors & Clinicians here in the U.S. Not an easy job they do.
It was after those experiences when I also attended more courses in Clinical Research, and I had Doctors, Faculty and Nurses and other clinicians as classmates.
That’s when I saw the “humanity” of these people pursuing higher education.
Most of them are well respected, but when you are in a scenario, like a classroom where all of you are equal, as fellow students, trying to learn and understand concepts together, discussing and drawing from our own experiences and then contributing to a collective of knowledge and experience, it was always a WOW, after each class or session.
I can see the huge difference between listening to an “entertainer” and listening to a real “teacher”. With more acronyms after their names than the alphabet can provide.
All our sessions were recorded too. And that was fine. Because we know, I know, that those types of body of information that we were studying and discussing will be useful and helpful for and to future scientists.
When my oldest brother died recently, I thought about the wealth of knowledge that God allowed to be stored in his brain.
When someone dies, that goes away, too. Except in the minds of those whom he has taught.
If we pass on along what we have learned in our lifetime to those who would listen, maybe the next generation would not have to be “searching all that much”, and then believing or getting misled into false teachings.
Even respected universities can do that at times.
Lie to students.
So, because society dictates to pursue education, we should.
But not all wisdom comes from education.
I know because I have pursued it to the highest form I possibly could.
All those are worldly wisdom. It’s Godly wisdom, that I should have pursued earlier in my life.
We can all “master plan” our life, but if it’s not in God’s plan, it will not be fruitful or productive, it will just be “fleeting”.
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And there goes my thoughts for right this moment. 🙂
I’d much rather post those here, than FB. It’s actually okay, now thinking about it in hindsight, when hackers hacked into my son’s FB account and then FB discovered it and disabled my son’s account. (Of course FB would know it wasn’t my son posting those isis #$%%#@@$ that the hackers posted there, and it was good they caught it soon enough and then deactivated that account. My son could no longer access it).
That was another “teaching moment” for me as his High Tech Mama. Those were just the types of things that hackers do. He couldn’t relate to me before when I got hacked, and still constantly being targeted heavily, and that’s why I gave up on Social Media altogether, and hid behind “I’m Social Media fasting.”
Now, I have been writing more and more, not publishing, but I am going to be sharing MORE of what I have personally experienced.
This site will be my own Social Media site! 🙂
That’s what I’m thinking.
And do you know how liberating and freeing it is to just write and type without fears of typos?
No editing, just type, then publish.
(Liberating for me because in another lifetime, I was an Editor In Chief of a multinational company. I was the “department head” also of the “news department”. Until I butt heads with another manager, and then I just decided to leave because I can’t do kickboxing at work.)
The pay was great, six digits. I had a monthly clothing allowance and a monthly gas allowance and a monthly food allowance, on top of the six digits.
YEAH!
My News Team loved it, because I could only spend so much on clothing allowance, and the fund was there, whether I use it or not. The company accountant just said, “Use it, it’s your benefit and your perk as a department head. “Editor In Chief – CHIEF Fault Finder”. Anything badly published here, it went through YOUR eyes! So that’s your perks! Just submit receipts”. At that time, we became “receipt collectors”, which other department heads also did, and we would swap receipts. When we’d work overtime, like ALWAYS, I always bought food for the Team, and they knew I was using my “benefits” as a department head. I guess the company used those “tax breaks”.
I felt bad when I realized how little the receptionist was getting paid. So even then, I was already somewhat like an “advocate”.
I didn’t know it. I was still young.
When “job titles” meant something because of the “status” it gave.
Status means nothing.
The higher your status, your earning capacity, the more targeted you will be. You will also get a lot of fake “friends”.
You’ll also get “namedropped” a lot.
One GREAT thing about losing it ALL, was when God made me go through all that, to SHOW me, who my REAL friends are.
Just a few.
So THAT was the “blessings” part.
I was also “listening to the wrong types of influences and mentorship.”
The turning point for me, was when I would just point blank ask …
“Do you believe in God?”
or
“Do you believe in Jesus?”
Because there were some “advise/advice” that I was receiving that didn’t match what was being taught in the bible (and back then I already started the bible project).
And I would be damned. When I heard “No, because such and such …. ”
etc.
Those were the last conversations I’ve had with those people.
AS Christ Followers, we have to BE CAREFUL who we listen to, who might influence us.
There is a huge difference between RIGHT and ALMOST RIGHT.
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And I am going to clean up the footers at CLG, and clean up the Credits page too. (will copy old codes and save them on draft).
LOL! I went all over the place. It’s amazing how God can remind us of our OLD LIFE, and then when we compare it to the NEW LIFE God has given us, it’s really like … GOD THANK YOU for helping me change for the better. Thank you for making me realize how FOOLISH I have been. Please help me not make those same mistakes again.
Because I will have to have something – that I can spin-off to. The more I get hacked, NOW ALL THE MORE is there a need to write about what I know, because if God allowed me to go through all these experiences, it is imperative to share the truth so that people are made aware. There’s just way too much deception and censorship going on to fit a certain narrative. Another researcher’s website shows this and it is worth repeating.
“It is easier to fool people than to convince them that they have been fooled.”
And of course the ONUS is on the reader … someone took the time to type out their experience so you can be vigilant, and ALSO so that you can learn from other people’s mistakes.
Like Eleanore Roosevelt said: “Learn from other people’s mistakes. This lifetime is not enough to commit all of them.”
🙂
The above is “blog post worthy”!
Convert it into a blog post or are you purposely not wanting it to be search-able that’s why you are posting it on the comment section?
Also, at CLG, the YT videos that are posted have some links to literature for sale. Should we edit those? Or was that why you put the Forum on private?
The Sept 17 and 18 sessions ARE on CLG? Should we transfer them here?
Yes. Let’s fo that! 🙂